Confession: A month and a half ago I hit rock bottom. I wasn’t feeling well at all, in fact I was feeling worse than I did when I started acupuncture with joint pain but also digestive issues and I began having other strange symptoms as well like rashes, insomnia, diarrhea, and weight gain. I started feeling like a fraud. Like this “healthy lifestyle” and acupuncture really wasn’t working for me, and questioned whether in fact it was making me sicker?
Through this journey I’ve done a ton of research on acupuncture, Chinese Medicine and especially on what to eat. I looking deeply into all of the symptoms I was having, talking to my acupuncturist about the different things I was experiencing and asking her what I should be doing. One day as we were talking we started a conversation centered around my childhood. I explained to her how crazy it was growing up, I was sick a lot, but not just with a common cold but with really random diseases like the Measles, Chickenpox, Fifth disease, Cellulitis, Shingles, truthfully the list is exhaustive. It was a light bulb that shed brightness into the shadowed problem. This whole time we’d been focusing on eliminating a potential parasite or candida when in fact there were other problems specific to me that needed addressing.
She explained that on some level the diseases I had previously are still stored in the body on some biological level. On another level they are energetically bogging down my liver causing a slow metabolic function, weakness to my gallbladder connection and my digestion. The liver truly does rule all, and if it’s not working right the adrenals and kidneys can’t do their jobs properly either and then you’ve got a grand old mess.
I started looking deeply into every symptom I was having at this time which included: hot inflamed risen rash on my left knee, burning itching patches on my left arm, chronic fatigue, digestive upset, loose stools and increased joint stiffness and edema. I began correlating each of these problems to a stagnant liver which in Chinese Medicine indicates the Qi is not able to move through the liver in order to detox the body properly and in turn there is not enough blood flow for the metabolic function and everything is slowed down almost to a halt. If the liver is sluggish it cannot go through the natural process of cleansing the body and work in conjunction with gallbladder to produce bile. When this happens everything begins to slow down, your thyroid slows and your adrenals become taxed because all of their energy is begin pulled on to get the liver to a point where it can do its job. All the energy in the body is being depleted and used inefficiently as the liver tries to compensate for it’s sluggish state.
My acupuncturist described my symptoms as the cure. The cure in Chinese Medicine is easily explained this way, in order for something to be healed you have to first experience it. This is likened to a healing crisis. Similarly, experiencing “the cure” as she calls it means that your body’s energy is releasing (past illness in my case) so that it can forever be gone. These crazy symptoms were actually my body’s way expelling them. The reason we know it was the “cure” is because none of the symptoms stayed around very long, at most one would linger for a few days but after that they went and didn’t come back.
Once I realized that my body was actually responding the way it should to eliminate the past I had a completely new perspective. Before there was a lot of frustration and anger, which is expected for anyone going through the healing process. Half of the journey to restoring health deals with the emotional aspects and how you’re able to approach a problem. During these fragile times it’s all the more important to focus on love and self-care and set aside the annoyance and frustration. Sometimes we begin to feel worse before we can feel better and often we need these experiences so we can appreciate what it’s like to feel amazing.
Now I am feeling worlds better, I have no visible rashes, decreased swelling and little to no joint pain. I know I am free from arthritis. It does not control me, but my body was going through a lot in the past months to get rid of things. My encouragement to you is to never give up, you are doing so much work and it will pay off. Remember that there is no one destination to health but instead continual maintenance of well-being.